"I'm afraid that my programming might not be good enough. What if I activate him and he feels bad? What if all of my studies on the soul gain superficial results and... and he feels like an outsider, or he acts the right way without anything backing it? And what if he doesn't like me. I've done all of these simulations, but I can't know until he's in his body. It's a leap of faith. It's not like I've been programming all my life; just for about three years. And I've had a lot of help, but I'm so scared to fail, and that my failure will hurt the boy." So her worries aren't attached to what Jude might do, but how he might feel. Her concern is for him, not others, which is sweet, in a way. She has full faith that he'll be a good boy.
She looks over at her daughters, too. A small, shy smile, unsure of herself.
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Date: 2012-01-24 01:47 am (UTC)She looks over at her daughters, too. A small, shy smile, unsure of herself.