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victormakesart ([personal profile] victormakesart) wrote2006-08-28 07:10 am

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I don't want to be someone's Project.

I don't like being analyzed.

I was in tears yesterday because I was so flustered with someone because sometimes I don't have a reason. And saying that isn't giving up. When I search for reasons, sometimes I reach blank spots. Maybe the reason is there. But if I can't find it then, I should wait for it to show up. I'm not giving up. I don't give up. And pushing me isn't helping. I respect the hell out of the person involved, but it didn't help. God, he'd love the Nexus, though. I should make him visit...

I don't like it when people treat me like I'm ignorant. Like I hadn't thought of certain options. I'm decently educated in psychology. I know I'm odd-strange. And people aren't likely to tell me something that I could try that I haven't already considered in some fashion. I know he didn't mean to imply that I was, but he did. And that bothered me.

Something that makes me happy:
G: HI SIS!!!!!!!
me: HI JOEY!!!!!
G: I miss u and i love u so much!
me: I'll see you soon!
G: I have a party so i might not see u till tomarrow
6:41 AM
me: Have fun at your party. Is it a b-day party?
G: Yeah Eddie Joe's Sleep over
me: Cool. Have fun!
6:42 AM
G: OK I LOVE U C YA
me: LOVE YOU!
6:43 AM
G: Bye See you soon
me: Bye!
See you soon!

[identity profile] vicioussweetie.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 01:13 pm (UTC)(link)
"Ah, that's very different. And very rude. Have you tried just walking away so they can be alone with their thoughts? Clearly they're just talking to themselves at that point."

[identity profile] victormakesart.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 01:16 pm (UTC)(link)
She shook her head. "We were typin' to each other. I think he wants me t' fix my problems. Which isn't a bad thing, but I wasn't feelin' too well, so I started cryin'. I mean, we've debated before, me an' him. It's never bothered me then. But if'n someone wants me t' pull myself apart an' examine every bit of me when I ain't feelin' up to it...I couldn't do it. An' he made it seem like I gave up. I don't give up."

[identity profile] vicioussweetie.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 03:05 pm (UTC)(link)
"Did you tell him you weren't feeling well?"

[identity profile] victormakesart.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 04:08 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah. Once I 'splained it a few times, he got better. We're gonna talk 'bout it later."

[identity profile] victormakesart.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 04:14 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah."